It is Madness

To hate all roses
because you got scratched with one thorn...

To give up on your dreams
because one didn’t come true...

To lose faith in prayers
Because one was not answered...

To give up on your efforts
Because one of them failed...

To condemn all your friends
Because one betrayed you...

Not to believe in love
Because someone was unfaithful or didn’t love you back...

To throw away all your chances to be happy
Because you did not succeed on the first attempt....

I hope that as you go on your way
You don’t give in to madness

Remembering always ...
Another chance may come up
Another friend
A new love
A renewed strength
Be persistent
Look for hapiness in every day

The sure path to failure is to give up! It is often through failure that future success come – KEEP TRYING!

God bless you.


This message was sent to me by Kuya Gary. He is really my source of inspiration often when I feel alone and down now a days. This message struck me when I read it this evening. When I was reading it, I didn't noticed that I was already crying.

The message is full of hope, but upon thinking about my present condition today, I begin to realize and begin to ask myself if I was growing and being more mature to what the present situation is demanding from me.

I have loved many things in my past. I have realized that every experience is unique. It can't be compared to any experience. It will not be the same people anymore. It will not be the same feeling anymore. All we can do is to learn to accept that many more will come. Many experiences with people that you'll meet in your journey. Many more trials and sufferings will surely come and yet we are all reminded to look for our hapiness day by day.

Born to Love: Loving is Forever

"Once you love that person, you never stop loving him."

In our lives, we meet many people, we make friends to these people and we eventually end up in loving them. People come and go. This is the fact that often gives us pain, and fear. The pain and fear of loosing someone.

As time passes by, we become attached to our love ones. There are chances that even our hapiness depends on them.

But the feeling subsides. Naturally, we should grow. And growth never stops in knowing someone that you've learned to love.

Eventually, we would tend to reach out to others and continue our journey of growth. We make the choices and decisions to fulfill our missions in life. Though it may hurt us often to detach and leave our comfort zones for us to still search and descern for our own growth, it will help us realize that it is the reality that we never ever stop loving the persons that had already become part of our growth.

They might not be anymore around when you need them because they're gone to search more opportunities to grow, but we must admit, loving never stops because they're not present with us. I know, "MAY PAKI PARIN AKO. KASI MAHAL KO SILA, KASI NAGING BAHAGI SILA NG PAGIGING AKO."ü


Prayer: Lord, thank you for giving us the opportunity to feel and give love. May we use this gift to grow, not to have fear and pain in loosing someone and to entrust ourlives only to you. Amen.

I am Superman

Superman
Five For Fighting

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me


Prayer: Lord, it's not easy to serve without expecting for a reward. Its not easey to be "Superman." Sometimes we would forget ourselves for sevice. This is the challenge of being a servant-leader. May we as leaders realize that we should do things for your will and may it be our inspiration to be satisfied in doing service for others. Amen.

Meeting the "God Of Irony" [part 2]

And I introduced him to one of the core groups of the VESSEL (G2 wahahaha!). Dami nya nakilala one of them was Ate Tin, a teacher in Makati! (sobrang magkavibes ung dalawa!) Yun, mukhang okey na sya. May kakaibang saya sakin habang nakikita ko ang taong ito na nakangiti habang nakikisalamuha sa mga taong marahil dati'y di nya naisip na makikila nya. Di ko hiningi ang pasasalamat sa taong ito. Sapat nang alam kong napasaya ko siya sa di lang panandaliang panahon. Gusto ko rin magpasalamat sa kanya. Sa mga bagay na naishare nya sakin, mga ngiti, mga luha, mga yakap at mga experiences sa aming mga pagsasama. Salamat sa pagtitiwala at sa pagmamahal.

Hanggang ngayon, nandyan ka parin. Di ako umaasang hanggang sa huli'y kasama ka. Kasi sakin sapat nang nandyan ka. Asahan mong di kita tatalikuran anu't ano pa man ang ating mga pagdadaanan.ü

Prayer: People come and go Lord. Thank you for the loyal friends that I have. Kahit marami na ang dumating at umalis. Nandyan parin nakaabang lang, nagmamatyag sa akin. Marami akong kaibigan na di ko napapansin at marahil di napapahalagahan, bigyan nyo ako ng pagkakataon upang sila'y mapansin, mapasalamatan at gugulan ng panahon upang palawigin pa ang aming pagkakaibigan. Salamat po sa kanila. Alam kong tulad nila, ikaw din, nandyan lang, nagmamatyag, nagaabang at nagmamahal. Kahit minsan di kita napapansin... nandyan ka parin tulad nila. Salamat. Amen.

Meeting the "God Of Irony" [part 1]

We were sophomores then... section 220 ako. There was this guy with the name of John Mark V. Tuazon in section 210. Wala lang... pag recess, lunch... kulitan. Behind all the laughs, kulitan, asaran and everything. Secretary at key holder ng class kaya laging una sa pinto. At sa tapat ng pintong yaon namuo ang isang pagkakaibigan. I had my plans for this person. Initial impression ko sa kanya- mahirap basahin ang pagkatao. Magaling magtago ng emosyon. I became interested in knowing this man. There, the mission started.

This is not an ordinary person. I know... I feel. Sa mga mata ng taong ito... nakita ko ang pagkalungkot, pag-iisa at pagtatago. Sa mga kwentong aking nangaririnig sa mga taong nakapaligid sa kanya... dito ko nalalaman sa kung paano ako dapat gumalaw.

Naging classmate ko sya. Ginaya kasi nya course ko. hehe! joke! Ayun! 29th of July 2003 days before our recollection, birthday nya. Friday and I wanted to surprise him. Ayun, I asked him what JM really wanted for his birthday. "Webcam" oh dba! ang luho! hehe!ü On his birthday, after being dismissed namadali kami ni Friday para bilhin un, naku wrong timing pa ang fever ko nun. Bumili kami ng food para pagsaluhan at ung gift namin sa kanya namatagal na nya wish. Alam ko naging masaya sya. Masaya rin ako nung araw na yun. Kahit may lagnat! haha.ü

One night, I phoned him. Daming kwento... in the end, I invited him to join me in the VESSEL, a community of youth forming youth.ü Ang lalim! (uhmmm mahirap explain ehhh!) to be continued... (antok na ako PRoMISe!)ü

Maalong Paglalayag

Ako ang Kapitan ng aking barko
Barkong nagnanais maglayag sa kalawakan ng dagat
Handa na ang lahat, desisyon ko nalamang
Ngunit batid ko'y hindi ako makausad

Nagtataka sa aking nararamdaman
Bakit tila kahit anong pilit barko'y paandarin
Hindi makausad sa bigat ng dalahin
Nararapat pa bang barko'y pilitin?

Lumalakas na ang alon
Namataan na mayroong bagyong papaparating
Kailangan na tayong makausad barko'y baka abutan
Kapitan! bakit tila wala paring pag-usad?

Ang angkla! nakababa parin ang angkla
Maayos ang lahat, ito ang dahilan ng di pag-usad
Huwag iangat ang angkla sabi ng kapitan
Sa huli'y nasa kanya pa rin ang pagpili


Prayer: Panginoon, Ako ang kapitan ng barko. Di makausad. Nakaangkla sa nakalipas. Paano ko lalagpasan ang mga along darating? Lulubog na lamang ba na di nasisilayan ang pag-asa? Bigyan mo ako ng direksyon. Sa ngayon, di ko alam kung saan ang tungo ng aking barko- ang aking sarili. Hayaan mo piliin kong iangat ang angkla ng barko. Nang sa gayo'y makausad na nagtitiwalang ikaw ay laging nasa piling ko. Tanging kapitan ng buhay ko. Amen.

Sanayan Lang Yan

I remember when I was in the seminary last June for my discernment, Fr. Elu Ulanday, SDB called me in his office and asked me some questions. Our talk was very casual. So light and yet so deep. He asked me, "Kumusta ung stay mo dito?" It was a very simple question, but it took me a minute to organize everything at the back of my mind to answer it. Madami kaming napagusapan about sa sagot ko about my discernment, and there was this question na, "Wala ka naman bang iba pang problema like dun sa mga ginagawa nila dito sa loob?" hehe! I smiled and told him, "Fadz, wala naman po masyado. Siguro nabibigla lang po ako sa discipline sa oras." because everything is scheduled and it would be my same routine day by day. Imagine that. "One thing more father, hehe! wala kasing time para sa paglalaba." hehe! in the seminary you wash your own clothes. Sa lahat ng sinabi ko sa kanya about the things na nahihirapan ako... about the discipline sa oras, sa paglalaba, about sa lahat ng bago sa pagkilos ko bilang ako, isa lang ang sagot nya. "Sanayan lang yan..." So to cut the long story short, di ako pumasok ng seminary. Siguro magulo para sa iba. "Pero, hindi kaya unfair naman ako kay Lord kung di ko ibibigay ang lahat kung pumasok man ako?" hindi ko naman sinasara ang tenga, puso, utak... lahat na! para sa call ni Lord. Kahit mahina pa ang ring nyan... kahit gaano pa kahina magvibrate... kung para sa akin yung call. Wala na siguro pa akong magiging dahilan para d ko sasagutin?

Sa paglabas ko akala ko at peace na ako. Di pa rin pala. Alam mo yun? Tingin ng iba eh "nakakaawa ka naman kasi hindi ka naman ganyan noon, bat ka nagakkaganyan ngaun?" and some would say, "Of all people, bakit sayo nangyayari yan?" hehe! Well, they don't know how I feel sa mga decisions na yun. Why should I be affected?ü Fr. Mon Borja, SDB once told me, "Meron tayong ibat-ibang story (vocation story). Be proud of your story! Kung hindi maganda yung reaction nila! So what. This is my story and im proud of it!"

Ngaung nasa college na ako, iba parin ang feeling kahit nasa Busko. Nalulungkot parin, hinahanap-hanap ang mga pinagagagawa ko dati, nagiisip ng mga bagay-bagay. In short d parin at peace. Ang gulo dba? and tinatanong ko pa nga... "Nakaktulong nga kaya sa akin ang pagsstay ko dito?" Well ako rin naman ang makakasagot sa mga questions na yan. Ako lang ang tutulong sa sarili ko. Its my choice to be happy. "How to do that?" is for me to know sa ngaun. Dahil siguro nga... "Sanayan lang yan..."

Prayer: Lord grant me the courage to change the things I can, to understand the things I can't and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen.