Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Ode to Goodbye

These angels left me for a while
I hope they would come back for me
I miss their angelic voices
Their smiles filling my heart with joy

Tell me that you're still with me
Ready to catch me when I fall again
Your soft whispers tickles my soul
When things are not in their proper circulation

Hold my hands once again
Fill the empty spaces between them
I want to feel ones again your warm embraces
Wrap me in your wings like you'll never leave me

I pray to God that he may allow us
To see each other even for the last
It's near that I'll come walking tall
A son embracing his fathers call

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

A Pilgrims Journey

Pilgrim's Theme

Tired of weaving dreams too loose for me to wear
Tired of watching clouds repeat their dance on air
Tired of getting tired of doing what's required
Is life a mere routine in the greater scheme of things

Through with taking roads someone else designed
Through with chasing stars that soon forget to shine
Through with going through one more day - what's new
Does my life still mean a thing in the greater scheme of things

I think I'll follow the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
I hope to find my place
So my life can fall in place
I know in time I'll find my place
In the greater scheme of things

Each must go his way, but how can I decide
Which path I should take, who will be my guide
I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far
To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things

The road before me bends, I don't know what I'll find
Will I meet a friend or ghosts I left behind
Should I even be surprised that You're with me in disguise
For it's Your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things

This song reminds me everything about how my vocation all started. It explains myself and how I feel for God. My direction is uncertain, yet God leads me to the path I chose. I have my dreams, I have my goals but they are all empty. It is he who fills me with everything while I am in my journey. To the people whom God has used to be an instrument in helping me and believing in me, thank you. I will be firm with the help of your prayers. To embrace God's call and not to turn away from it.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

A Conversation to my Lord

Lord, there are many things that I do not understand about you.
So many questions that need answers.
You told me that you'll answer these things in time... In your time.
Pero nakakapagod din maghintay.

Lord, ang hirap mong sundan.
May mga times na ramdam kong malapit ka sakin at akala ko hindi ka na aalis.
Pero saglit lang akong lumingon at di ko na naman maramdaman ang kamay mo.
Bakit sa pinakamahirap at sa pinakamasakit na paraan ako kailangang sumunod?

Bakit kailangang mangyari ang mga bagay na ito sa akin?
Bakit ako pa? Marami namang iba dyan. Hindi makasalanan na tulad ko.
Maraming beses na kitang binigo, pero naririnig ko parin ang matamis mong tawag.
Bakit sa kabila ng lahat, pinili mong mahalin ako? Isang makasalanan.

When I feel afraid and lonely, I don't want to call on you anymore.
I feel unworthy because I've offended you many times. Yet you know everything.
When I feel down. Hinahanap kita, pero madalas bakit di kita makita?
When I feel tired. I tend to choose the easy instead of the right way.

Bakit mo hinahayaang mangyari ang lahat ng ito sa akin?
Hindi kita maintindihan. Minsan gusto ko nalang sumuko.
Minsan nararamdaman ko nalang na para akong laruan.
Walang buhay. Ikaw lang ang may hawak. Gusto ko rin namang maging tunay.

Sa maraming taon na lumipas, alam mo kung paano at gaano kita minahal.
Pero bakit ngayon ko tinatanong sa sarili ko, Pagmamahal nga ba iyon?
Minsan ayoko nang maniwalang tunay ka. Dahil nasasaktan ako. Andyan ka nga ba?
Lord, please. Kaylangan kita ngayon. Ikaw na makakapuno ng puso ko.